Temptation

Oh my word!  These last two days are about to be the undoing of me!  First of all, I was minding my own business yesterday when I went to lunch and saw that our lunch room was filled with cupcakes.  CUPCAKES!  Do you know how much I love cupcakes?!?!?!  I immediately began weighing the pros and cons in my head as to whether I should eat one.  The first reason I came up with for not eating one is that they were chocolate cupcakes, and I like vanilla cupcakes much better.  One look at the next cupcake tray, and I realized that reason was no longer good as the vanilla cupcakes stared at me...begging for me to eat them!  I heard them calling my name.  AAAHHHHH!!!!!

I sat down at the table and began eating my lunch.  The entire thirty minutes I had a battle raging in my head as to whether or not I would eat one.  I finally told my friends, "Don't let me eat one."  They told me they wouldn't, but the war kept going.  I ate my lunch very slowly and by the time I was done, lunch was over.  I had to move on, and luckily, away from the cupcakes.  The thing with me is that if I would have eaten a cupcake, it would have opened this floodgate, and I am not sure I would have stopped at just one.  Mission accomplished: cupcake(s) avoided!

Then today I just had a bad day.  A really stinky, bad day.  What would I normally do when I have a bad day at work?  Eat.  A lot.  Whatever I want.  Binge.  Drown my sorrows in food.  All the way home I listened to some praise and worship music and just prayed. 

You know what came to my mind?  This quote:

This is a favorite saying of my pastor, and that is what kept coming to my head as I prayed.  I can choose to do what I have always done and eat when I am having a bad day, but then NOTHING will change.  I will continue to feel bad about myself and undo some of the positive changes that I have been making.  Instead of eating like crazy when I came home, I decided to write this blog. 

I am learning new things about myself.  I know that I will make mistakes along the way, and that is okay.  I am just not making those mistakes today!