Not By My Strength

Okay, I have a confession.  I am weak...so weak.  Every single day is a battle.  I wage war in my thoughts, in my surroundings, and in my actions.  I want to quit.  I want to sleep in and not work out in the mornings.  I want to return to former eating habits - mainly eating out or grabbing fast food on the way home for dinner.

But I don't.  It has nothing to do with me, and it has absolutely everything to do with Him - Jesus.

 
Thank God for this verse!  How many of us are weak and weary?  How many of us need strength and power?  In at least one aspect of our lives, I think we ALL can say that we are weak and need an increase in power.

This week this was brought to my attention time and time again.  I had so much going on - busy evenings, had to attend a funeral that brought back many memories of my own father's funeral, had headaches and was tired most of the week.  There were times this week I wanted to turn my alarm off or hit snooze just one more time.  On Thursday this week it was a huge mental battle for me.  All afternoon at school I just started thinking about stopping at Steak-N-Shake on the way home and grabbing my dinner.  What did I do instead?  I prayed.  Hard.  Then I drove right by that restaurant and every other restaurant on the way home, and I ate the meal I had prepared earlier in the week.

I love Jesus, and my ultimate motivation to get healthy is for Him.  So I can be better used for His purposes.  I saw a quote once, and I continue to come back to it time and time again.

Lord, help me to always honor You in all that I do.