Well, it has been awhile. My last post was the end of March. April and May kept me pretty busy with the end of the school year, but I could have made time to post. The problem is that I lost focus. I didn't make it a priority.
My word for 2015 is action. During the month of May in particular, there was a gap between my intention and action, and it all boiled down to one word - priorities. I found this quote and it really made me start thinking:
Your action (or in my case lack of) expresses your priorities. My inaction for the month of May showed that my priorities changed. I no longer was making myself a priority, and I was suffering because of it - mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally. All facets of my life were affected by my inaction.
I am not sorry that I lost focus in May. It was another learning experience for me. It has taught me that if I don't make myself a priority that I cannot be my best self. If I am not my best self, then all of my family, friends, ministries suffer. I am just giving them all different broken pieces of me.
One priority I let go is blogging. Then, one day I had an e-mail saying I had a comment on my blog. I thought this was strange since I hadn't made blogging a priority, and then I went to check the comment out. The comment said:
I was blown away for a number of reasons. One, this particular post was written on August 26, 2013 - almost two years ago. Another is that it reminded me why I blog. I blog to sort through my feelings and struggles, but I also blog so that other people know they are not alone in this journey. I mean, here is this person that probably did the same thing I did (which for those people that didn't know I googled whether or not fat people could complete the Warrior Dash, completed my first Warrior Dash, and then shared my experience) and stumbled upon my blog. I hate that this person left an anonymous comment because I would love to follow up with him / her and see how the Warrior Dash went for him / her. I want to thank this person for commenting because this anonymous person reminded me that I needed to start blogging again and sharing my journey - no matter how messy and off track it can be. It reminded me that we need people to encourage us and be real with us and share the struggle with us.
That brings me to my goal for June.
So what does making me a priority look like? It means that I am back to meal planning and that I schedule time to meal plan. It means that I workout daily, no excuses. It means that I work on my blog - even if it takes time. For example, I have been working on this post for several days now. It also means that I become better about using my passion planner so that I achieve the goals that I set for 2015. It means that I have to commit to myself and maybe say no right now to some other things.
I absolutely love this quote and plan on printing it off and putting it in different places to remind me what I have to do.
Thank you, Anonymous, for helping me to get back on track! I know you rocked your Warrior Dash! .